I know it all. I was an idiot. I was stupid that day. I broke up with you. I still remember the moment, when I finally said goodbye. Then you walked away, without any words to say, so lame. And the leaves fell down as the feeling between us.
But then I’ve fallen in love with you, lately. Again. I’ve been trying to take you back. There’s nothing happened. You turned into a man, so masculine. And I thought I’m in love with you, more than I did in the high school.
And I wondered, why did I break you up? Why did I hurt you? What did I think? Did I not think about the risk? And the reflection that would happen in future? I’m such an idiot.
However, you never realize everything that I do. “I’m just your ex, I’m just your friend”. Maybe that’s enough to explain about me, for you. You do the best to erase my name in your heart. You did it. But I didn’t.
Days by days, she’s coming. And without any permissions, she easily wins in your heart. In less than 6 months. You’ve fallen in love with that American girls. And everything’s going worse. I watched you laughed, hugged, even kissed, when those all should’ve been me if I wasn’t really stupid.
But what else can I do? You finally met another girl that gonna put you first. Then I told you I was falling in love with you. But that’s not even help me anymore. All I do is nothing. You’ll never coming back to me. After the last words I said years ago.
So I live my life miserably. I’m miserable. I’m suffering. And everything’s going even worse when I received a sweet wedding invitations. Your name and her name were there. I’m desperate instantly. Could life get any worse?
I didn’t come to your wedding. It’s hurt to let go someone I don’t wanna let go. So here I am, just watching you laugh with another girl. Sometimes I wonder, if there were a time machine, I’ll go back to the day when we broke up. And turn away my words. So my name would there, with yours. In our wedding invitations.